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I adopted a cute lil' death fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!
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| lately... |
| 08.03.04 (9:26 am) [edit] |
so friday i went to the movies with ryan, adam, and kristen...the movie was ok till like the middle of it when they killed it. we saw The Village. after the we went to burger king n then hung out in the parking lot of stop n shop for almost an hour. it was fun.
saturday, uh i did nothing..yay nothingness!
sunday was nicoles pool party from 12:30 - 4:30 and me n ryan went. it was cool, even though it started raining and thundering while people were in the pool. uh, then ryan came over my house till 8ish and we took the baby for a walk together...it was funny we got evil looks.
and then yesterday i cleaned all day, and finally the apartment is almost spotless! i just have to finish it up alittle...or alot but thats another project for another day...
**CanDii**
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| personality disorder |
| 07.30.04 (9:31 am) [edit] |
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| home again |
| 07.29.04 (9:14 am) [edit] |
finally back home again, not that it makes much of a difference because i have to go back to my moms again on friday night anyway. but it was cool to be home finally. yesterday uncle ron picked me up at like 2:15ish but it wasnt fair cause i was on the phone and he made me hang up so that i could leave. hmm, me and auntie went grocery shopping last night and then we came back and watched The Exorcist.
I started reading the 11th book in the Daughters Of The Moon series yesterday. i finished it before i went to bed, that one was good. i cant wait for the new series "Sons Of The Dark" to come out, should be really good.
eh, im babysitting right now, until uncle ron gets back from the store and then ill start getting ready to leave and then ill leave yay!
**CanDii**
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| 07.26.04 (5:48 pm) [edit] |
so the party on saturday was fun...it was raining so we didnt think it would be good but everything pulled together. i got to spend time with ryan, and i went swimming and the baby hung out with her boyfriend (his name is Hunter)
and then of course i had to go home after the party because uncle ron kicked me out for accouple of days.
then yesterday i called ryan and talked to him for like, over an hour on the phone *feels loved* um and then after that i went to saint mary's feast cause CHUCKO (now knows as SOMETHING ELSE) was playing...they were so nice and everything, and when i asked Dean (theg uitar player/lead singer) to play a song for me hes like "this ones for Sam" and he played it i was all like yay! so i was there for like 4 or 5hours listening to them. and mom said that next time they play at ballards i can go too..and she said ryan can come with me, yay!
today i woke up at 1 cause i slept wicked late. and then at 3ish i went to go find ryan. and i saw kassy!and then me n ryan walked to burger king and ate lunch and then hung out behind dragon villa for like an hourish and then went back to my house for alittle while. then me n ryan walked down to the bottom of the hill n ran into ashley n talked to her for afew minutes, and then ryan left to go walk home(im sorry i made you walk home when it was dark out.) and then ash walked me halfway home...cause i was barefoot n i didnt tell anyone i was leaving
but i didnt get in trouble when i got back because my mom had fallen asleep and she thought that i was outback, even though it was like 9by the time i got back...so things have been going good.
**CanDii**
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| HAPPY BIRTHDAY! |
| 07.22.04 (12:19 pm) [edit] |
HAPPY FIRST BIRTHDAY DESTINY ANN O'HERN!
Born: 11:54p.m July 22, 2003
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICOLE!
July 22
HAPPY BIRTHDAY COURT!
July 21
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| pitty case? |
| 07.20.04 (6:47 pm) [edit] |
ok so i had fun today...until i talked to flint...
i went over kassys at like 1130ish and then i went to see ryan around 7ish and hung out with him n kayla till 730when kayla left n then it was me n ryan till 830
but then flint signs online when im on...and starts talking to me....
he was like "o i hate you, you dont understand, everyone hates you, they all think 'o poor little sami she needs help with all of her problems' and your such a pitty case, all you do it look for people to pitty you" and im just like "uhh....ok then"
then he starts sayin stuff bout willow...hes just messin with her head because she said that noone she meets online would ever be able to...and he doesnt really like her...
...im worried bout how shes gunna feel when she gets the email that i sent her with everything that he had said about her...its gunna hurt her so much cause she actually cares about him...
am i a pitty case?
**CanDii**
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| Update |
| 07.19.04 (1:14 pm) [edit] |
so the weekend wasnt that bad, friday i did end up spending the night at heidi's and it was fun...saturday i got dropped off back at home aorund 1:30ish and at 2we went to the Indian Pow-Wow. omg it was so much fun, real native americans dressed up dancing to the beat of drums and singing and all the different native things that you could buy, oh it was so much fun. saturday night we salted the house because we could tell there was negative engergy...especially when the door on the cabinet just broke off randomly and the whole cabinet almost fell (ontop of auntie)...
yesterday...i had to watch the baby while uncle ron n grandpa put in the new storm door in front....it took them almost 5hours to put in 1door...:shakes head: they cant do anything together without it taking forever n ever. then we had to go furniture shopping for a new cabinet cause well...the door fell off the other one and it cant be put back on. we didnt end up getting anything though :(
and then theres today...i spent the day cleaning up the house with auntie and watching the baby...and i was online for alittle but i had to have an away message up most of the time cause i was busy with something else...and then i called kassy and got to talk to her! :) and i get to go over her house tomorrow at like 2if its ok with my mummy cause well i have to walk there lol...
...and kassy be happy that im going cause i was supposed to go with my aunt to some place with the baby and im not, im going to your house instead
and that leads me to now...and i have to go...so i can go cook dinner so i can eat, cause im starving
**CanDii**
Destiny's first birthday~4days
Birthday Party~6days
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| Musical ABC's |
| 07.19.04 (12:57 pm) [edit] |
Ok so i found this in someone elses blog n its just like uh all band names that you listen to n stuff that start with that letter of the alphabet or something like that i dunno but anyways....
{A} AFI, Ashlee Simpson
{B} Blink-182, Bon Jovi
{C} Cold Play
{D} Dashboard Confessional
{E} Evanescance, Eve6
{F} Fall Out Boy, Faith No More
{G} Green Day
{H} H.I.M.
{I} Incubus, Ill Nino
{J} Jet
{K} Korn, KC & JoJo
{L} LaCuna Coil, Linkin Park
{M} Madona, Mest
{N} NickleBack, Nine Inch Nails
{O} Offspring, Ozzy Osbourne
{P} Poison
{Q} Queen
{R} Richard Markx
{S} Simple Plan, Switchfoot, Slipknot
{T} Taking Back Sunday, Three Days Grace, Trapt, TLC
{U} Used
{V} Verve Pipe
{W} White Stripes
{X} ...:blank mind:
{Y} YellowCard, Yeah Yeah Yeahs
{Z} ...cant think of anything for that one
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| ...my weekends set already |
| 07.16.04 (7:34 am) [edit] |
...plans for the weekend are already set *pout*
cause im sleeping over heidi's tonight until tomorrow afternoon and then i'm still going to the Indian Pow-Wow and then sunday mom made plans for me and her and manda to spend time together :hates when parents do that: but...she wont tell me where we're all gunna go, which kinda like sucks cause if im not enjoying it then it was a waste of a day when i could have hung out with friends or something.
i had to babysit this morning, yay me! :sarcasm: it was ok though i didnt really do to much, it was only 2n a half hours...but i had to be awake at 7:30 and that is killer, i cant go to sleep at like 2ish and wake up at 7:30 it just doesnt work that way...
**CanDii**
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| ....its not my fault dun get mad its so long... |
| 07.15.04 (6:36 pm) [edit] |
[Nicknames] Sam, Sami, CanDii
[Screen name] HauntedxByxLove, MyBl3edingH3art
[Birthday] March 26, 1990
[Age] 14
[Astrological sign?] ~*Aries*~
[Location] Rhode Island
[Marital Status] i'm pleading the 5th
[Religion] Wiccan
[Eye color] brown
[Height] 5'0/5'1 ish...
[Shoe size] 6/6n a half in womans
[Parents still together?] nope
[Siblings?] 5...1sister 1 half sister 1step brother 2half brothers
[Nieces/Nephews?] no : pouts :
[Kids of your own?] no
[Pets?] a dog, i love my dog :)
[In school/graduated?] goin into 9th
[Rent, lease, or own your home?] own
[Have any credit cards?]my parents...
[What do you drive?] i dont
=Preferences=
Favorites
[Color(S)] black
[Number] 42
[Animal] binturong
[Vehicle] jeep wrangler...or a harley fatboy, you choose
[Flower] roses/bleeding hearts
[Scent] vanilla
[Shape] uh...uh...diamond? *points to finger* like the one that i dont have on my finger
[Drinks] nestea/grape fruit2o
[Soda] mountain dew
[Book] Shadows ~ John Saul
[Bands] to many to name...
[Songs] Join Me In Death, all the songs ryan sent me, Love Walks In, Runaway Train, Wait and Bleed, Duality, Numb, Runaway
=Do you...=
[Color your hair?]no :(
[Twirl your hair?] yesh :giggle:
[Have tattoos?] sort of...
[Piercings?] 3in each ear
[Drink/Smoke?] eww not
[Like roller coasters?] sometimes
[Wish you could live somewhere else?]- definitly...Santa Cruz here i come!....in another 4years :sigh:
[Want more piercings?] of course
[Like cleaning?] only my aunties
[Write in cursive or print?] print
[Swear a lot?] no comment?
[Own a web cam?] no
[Know how to drive?] i could...
[Diet?] i dont eat much....unless its like late at night and theres alot of icecream in the house
[Own a cell phone?] no :(
[Ever get off the damn computer?] sometimes....
[Habla Espanol?] no...je parle la francais though
=Have you ever...=
[Gotten a speeding ticket?] no
[DUI?] huh?
[Been in a wreck?] when my mommy was preggy with me
[Been arrested?] never
[Been in a fist fight?] no
[Kicked someone in the nuts?] lmao, all the time
[Stolen anything?] never
[Held a gun?] all the time
[Drank?] never
[Been so drunk you couldn't remember your name?] no
[Considered a life of crime?] - im innocent :shifty eyes:
[Considered being a rent boy?] a what?
[Cheated on someone?] i wouldnt have the heart to
[Been married?] 8more years...
[Cried over a girl?] nope
[Cried over a boy?] sadly...
[Lied to someone?] i dont lie, i bend the truth
[Been in love?] not yet...
[Fallen for your best friend?] :blush: yes
[Been rejected?] no...i hide my feelings so that i wont get rejected
[Been in lust?] wouldnt you like to know...
[Used someone?] nope
[Been used?] plenty of times
[Been cheated on?] yes
[Been kissed?] :giggles: yes
=Now=
[Current mood] pissed off
[Current music] Key of the twilight
[Current taste] mac n cheese :)
[Current hair] down...prettyful like always
[Current annoyance] people are ickyful
[Current smell] my shampoo...its vanilla
[Current thing I ought to be doing] nothing i have nothing to do so im online all night
[Current windows open] none, the AC is on...gotta love central air
[Current desktop picture] its plain...they wont let me add a desktop thats pretty :(
[Current book] uh the one im supposed to be reading for summer reading
[Current cd in stereo] The Buzz
[Current crush] ...he knows who he is
[Current favorite celeb] johnny depp
[Current hate] people who dont understand me...im just the way i am and theres nothing that anyone can do to change me
[Current job] babysitter...
=The last time=
[Last book you read] Shadows ~ John Saul
[Last movie you saw] i watched Benny and Joon last week
[Last thing you had to drink] grape fruit2o
[Last thing you ate] ham and mac n cheese
[Last person you talked to on the phone] heidi
[Do drugs?] never did them
[Have a dream that keeps coming back?] it haunts me
[Play an instruments?] nope...
[Believe there is life on other planets?] mhm
[Remember your first crush?] cant remember
[Still like him/her?] how can i if i dont remember?
[Read the newspaper?] nope
[Have any gay or lesbian friends?] bi ones
[Believe in miracles?] sometimes
[Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?] if your in love, then yes
[Consider yourself tolerant of others?] sometimes
[Consider love a mistake?] iv never been in love, i wouldnt know
[Have a favorite candy?] dum dum lolipops
[Believe in astrology?] yesh! very much
[Believe in magic?] magicK yes
[Believe in God?] not your god
[Do well in school?] *honer student*
[Go to or plan to go to college] plan to
[Wear hats?] mhm
[Hate yourself?] always have
[Have an obsession?] no :lies:
[Do they know yet?] does who no what?
[Have a best friend?] yes
[Close friends?] yes
[Like your handwriting?] no
[Care about looks?] no, looks mean nothing...but its a bonus if the person i date is cute...which they are..i mean if i was dating someone :shifty eyes:
=Love life=
[First crush] dunno
[First kiss] lets not go there
[Single or attached?] attatched? to what?
[Ever been in love?] not that i know of
[Do you believe in love at first sight?] yes
[Do you believe in "the one?"] i do...very much so...i just dont no if theres 'the one' out there for me
dun kill me its not my fault that its so long :cowars in corner:
**CanDii**
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| ...baseball can be fun... |
| 07.15.04 (4:06 pm) [edit] |
...went to a baseball game today, i was like a half hour late...it was one of those little league thingys, but the team from lincoln won(of course...its our team)...we wont 13-0 :giggle: it was fun...i hung out with kayla for alittle and then ryan showed up so i got to hang out with him too
...kaylas really funny when she has to much caffine lol
"the guys with the white jackets are your friends" haha that was funny
heidi wants me to spend the night at her house tomorrow...but i dunno if im gunna be able to :frown: and i wanna go to ryans tomorrow too and i wont be able to do that if i sleep over heidi's and if i sleep over heidi's i wont be able to go to the Indian Pow-Wow this weekend : pout :
but uh, yea...
....baseball is fun...:giggle:
**CanDii**
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| ...yesterday |
| 07.13.04 (8:05 am) [edit] |
so heres what happened yesterday before i got all pissed off with my uncle...
...i woke up early to babysit so that uncle ron could go work with grampa for afew hours...pretty easy, i got paid to watch tv while the baby fell asleep in my arms :smile: woot i am skilled!...
...then around like 3ish i started to get ready to go meet up with ryan n adam at the creamery...and i was 5minutes late lol
and then adam drove us back to ryans and we listened to some music and watched the smurfs and went on homestarrunner.com
then we went downstairs in the basement and played megaman lol...
...then i got to have some fun...:giggle:
and then we went to go find adam cause he disappeared
and then i was forced to eat food :shifty eyes: i wasnt hungry....
and then we went back downstairs and played more megaman...
and then i had to go home cause i was late and i was in trouble with my uncle...which leads us back to...I CANT STAND HIM ANYMORE! :angel smiles:
**CanDii**
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| i cant stand it anymore! |
| 07.12.04 (6:57 pm) [edit] |
i cant stand my uncle anymore! hes just grr! :pulls at hair: he doesnt leave me alone and hes punishing me for coming home 10minutes late. 10 minutes big deal!
and all day all he does is make fun of me every single chance that he gets its just like "wow, can you leave me alone now"and he just never goes away!
i dont think ima be able to spend another month here with him! hes so grrr i just i dunno he like totally stresses me...
one day without him and i would be like so incredibly happy just like one day without him bugging me!
**CanDii**
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| Walking on Broken Glass |
| 07.09.04 (6:48 pm) [edit] |
this is like, one of my all time favorite songs and i guess the lyrics are kinda like...insperational? i dunno...they help me get thru things sumtimes so...here ya go
|~*~|Walking On Broken Glass|~*~|
~8Mest8~
time goes by,
i just try,
to hold my,
head up high,
people try,
to deny,
classify,
or just hide
and feelings whats inside
broken hearts and hard times
dont let life break you down this time
im sitting here crying here
you're alone and dying there
waiting for bad news
like walking on broken glass
no answers for what was asked
you're all alone
cause you know
that i'd give my life for you
time can be,
nothing but our enemy
dont give up,
just hold on,
is the pain,
just too strong?
to hold on,
sometimes we're wrong,
when we think we're right
tonight will be the night
you'll break free from this fight
dont let life break you down this time
im sitting here crying here
you're alone and dying there
waiting for bad news
like walking on broken glass
no answers for what was asked
you're all alone
cause you know
that i'd give my life for you
time can be
nothing but our enemy
i die inside from all i feel
does it have to be this way
memories of yesterday
when it all just slips away
i'd give up everything i have
to keep you one more day
i know that,
its not right
why do we feel this way?
why do i feel this way?
im sitting here crying here
you're alone and dying there
waiting for bad news
like walking on broken glass
no answers for what was asked
you're all alone
cause you know
that i'd give my life for you
time can be
nothing but our enemy
**CanDii**
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| last night... |
| 07.09.04 (8:17 am) [edit] |
last night was fun...last minute movie plans can work out! me andy court n alisha went to go see king arthur in the theaters. and we got a number yay! lol
the movie was good...it wasnt to realistic...when you stab someone they bleed...its a war movie and i only saw like pretty much no blood! not fair :growls:
ooo and we wrote on the pole lol..."i dub thee pole myles" and uh...:thinks of what else happened:
uh...i think that was it?
oooo i was on camera last night :poses pretty: yay me! lol...
**CanDii**
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| ...and now what? |
| 07.08.04 (9:00 am) [edit] |
im back at my moms house until friday morning because i was so homesick, but...what now?
i mean anyone that ive tried to call hasnt been home and theres one person im dying to talk to but i freaked out on him last night and now i dont think that hes gunna call me...and i left his number back at home.
and i want to get out of the house so bad today just walk and walk and walk and never turn back, just keep going.
and i miss him, and i feel so bad that i got pissed at him last night, he didnt diserve it.
but right now all i deserve is nothing. because thats exactly what i am, im nothing. i get treated like nothing, i act like nothing, i treat others like theyr nothing...but in all actuality its just me. and now i know it...
theres just nothing to look forward to anymore...
**CanDii**
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| what is love? |
| 07.07.04 (7:27 am) [edit] |
..i cant stop asking myself, what is love, do i believe in it, and why am i so afraid to be in love?
i dont know if its the influence that iv gotten out of my parents different relationships, or if its that i cant have a successful relationship but, why am i so afraid to fall in love? i dont no if its cause im afraid for people to really get to know me or what, but theres already accouple of people that know me for me and know me from the inside out and that was accidental...they werent supposed to get to know me as well as they did.
i dont no what im supposed to believe anymore. i mean i know so many people that say that theyve fallen in love and then it didnt work out, does that mean it was really love or did they just think it was?
and how are you supposed to know if its love or not?
...and y do i keep asking myself this?
:sighs: i think i need to go home and relax for afew days and take a break...and feel better...
**CanDii**
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| ...get to know me?... |
| 07.06.04 (4:51 pm) [edit] |
| What is your name?: | Sam | | Are you named after anyone?: | not that i know of | | What's your screename?: | HauntedxByxLove | | Would you name a child of yours after you?: | nooo | | If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: | uh, i dunno | | If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: | Aria | | Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: | no, my names not that hard to pronounce/type | | Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: | probly not | | Basics | | Your gender:: | girl | | Straight/Gay/Bi:: | straight | | Single?: | single | | If not, do you want to be?: | no, i dont want to be | | Birthdate:: | March 26 | | Your age:: | 14 | | Age you act:: | 14 i think | | Age you wish you were:: | 18, so i could get outa this town! | | Your height:: | about 5'1 | | Eye color:: | brown | | Happy with it?: | nope, i want it blue | | Hair color:: | brown | | Happy with it?: | nope i want it black | | Lefty/righty/ambidextrous :: | lefty/ambidextrous | | Your living arrangement:: | with my aunt uncle n cousin | | Your family:: | its big | | Have any pets?: | a dog | | Whats your job?: | babysitter | | Piercings?: | 3in each ear | | Tattoos?: | none yet | | Obsessions?: | ...no comment... | | Addictions?: | none | | Do you speak another language?: | french, sort of | | Have a favorite quote?: | "Just escape for a moment and let me take you into more of my world..." | | Do you have a webpage?: | my blog | | Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it | | Do you live in the moment?: | yes | | Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: | sometimes | | Do you have any secrets?: | lots | | Do you hate yourself?: | yes | | Do you like your handwriting?: | eh, its ok | | Do you have any bad habits?: | bite my nails, hurt myself | | What is the compliment you get from most people?: | they say im cute | | If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: | how am i supposed to know? | | What's your biggest fear?: | love | | Can you sing?: | when i want to | | Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: | eww no | | Are you a loner?: | can be sometimes | | What are your #1 priorities in life?: | getting out of the town i live in now | | If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: | probly not | | Are you a daredevil?: | yep | | Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: | everything accept my eyes | | Are you passive or agressive?: | both? | | Do you have a journal?: | my blog | | What is your greatest strength and weakness?: | strength-none, weakness-everything | | If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: | everything accept my eyes | | Do you think you are emotionally strong?: | not at all | | Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: | ill tell you when my lifes over | | Do you think life has been good so far?: | it can be sometimes | | What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: | dont pick a stalker as your bf | | What do you like the most about your body?: | my eyes | | And least?: | my body | | Do you think you are good looking?: | no | | Are you confident?: | do i sound it? | | What is the fictional character you are most like?: | um, i dunno...uh...dont ask me | | Are you perceived wrongly?: | yes | | Do You... | | Smoke?: | no | | Do drugs?: | no | | Read the newspaper?: | no | | Pray?: | no | | Go to church?: | ewww :runs way: | | Talk to strangers who IM you?: | yes | | Sleep with stuffed animals?: | yes | | Take walks in the rain?: | always | | Talk to people even though you hate them?: | sadly, yes | | Drive?: | no | | Like to drive fast?: | when someone else is driving mhm | | Would or Have You Ever? | | Liked your voice?: | i duno what i sound like | | Hurt yourself?: | ...no...:lies: | | Been out of the country?: | not till august | | Eaten something that made other people sick?: | no | | Been in love?: | not yet... | | Done drugs?: | no | | Gone skinny dipping?: | no | | Had a medical emergency?: | no | | Had surgery?: | no | | Ran away from home?: | ....? | | Played strip poker?: | no | | Gotten beaten up?: | nope, only wrestle | | Beaten someone up?: | yes | | Been picked on?: | yes | | Been on stage?: | no | | Slept outdoors?: | yes | | Thought about suicide?: | yes | | Pulled an all nighter?: | yes!i have! go me! | | If yes, what is your record?: | um, i was up till 530am lol | | Gone one day without food?: | mhm, i went almost 2weeks without food | | Talked on the phone all night?: | yep, and then fell asleep on the phone | | Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: | no..i never slept with anyone | | Slept all day?: | no | | Killed someone?: | no | | Made out with a stranger?: | no | | Had sex with a stranger?: | no | | Thought you're going crazy?: | yes | | Kissed the same sex?: | no | | Done anything sexual with the same sex?: | no | | Been betrayed?: | yes | | Had a dream that came true?: | no | | Broken the law?: | ..maybe.. | | Met a famous person?: | mhm | | Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: | no | | On purpose?: | no | | Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: | no | | Stolen anything?: | never | | Been on radio/tv?: | radio | | Been in a mosh-pit?: | mhm | | Had a nervous breakdown?: | once a week... | | Bungee jumped?: | not yet | | Had a dream that kept coming back?: | yes | | Beliefs | | Belive in life on other planets?: | yes | | Miracles?: | i dunno | | Astrology?: | yes | | Magic?: | magick yes | | God?: | no | | Satan?: | no | | Santa?: | no | | Ghosts?: | yep | | Luck?: | yes | | Love at first sight?: | ...mhm | | Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: | yes | | Witches?: | im living proof | | Easter bunny?: | no | | Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: | yes? | | Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: | not anymore | | Do you wish on stars?: | mhm | | Deep Theological Questions | | Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: | huh? | | Do you think God has a gender?: | why is this all about god!? do you ever think about people that arent christian!? | | Do you believe in organized religion?: | in what? | | Where do you think we go when we die?: | i believe my spirit will still be in the mortal world and i shall be a ghost | | Friends | | Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: | no, bi ones tho | | Who is your best friend?: | ...i cant say | | Who's the one person that knows most about you?: | ryan | | What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: | dont date guys that will turn into stalkers that youll need a restraining order against | | Your favourite inside joke?: | hehe we wont go there | | Thing you're picked on most about?: | my figure | | Who's your longest known friend?: | aria | | Newest?: | dunno | | Shyest?: | myself | | Funniest?: | all of them | | Sweetest?: | all of them in their own twisted ways | | Closest?: | ryan | | Weirdest?: | all of them in their own twisted ways | | Smartest?: | uh.... | | Ditziest?: | me hehe | | Friends you miss being close to the most?: | aria | | Last person you talked to online?: | ryan | | Who do you talk to most online?: | hannah | | Who are you on the phone with most?: | noone, i dont use the phone much...someone call me please! | | Who do you trust most?: | one person...thats it...they know who they are | | Who listens to your problems?: | all of them | | Who do you fight most with?: | my sister | | Who's the nicest?: | all of them | | Who's the most outgoing?: | dunno | | Who's the best singer?: | katie | | Who's on your shit-list?: | everyone, but my friends | | Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: | wtf? | | Who's your second family?: | i dunno | | Do you always feel understood?: | never | | Who's the loudest friend?: | sara | | Do you trust others easily?: | nope | | Who's house were you last at?: | my moms | | Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:: | ryans | | Do your friends know you?: | some of them | | Friend that lives farthest away:: | wyatt... | | Love and All That | | Do you consider love a mistake?: | no | | What do you find romantic?: | roses | | Turn-on?: | ...blue lights...strobe lights...kinky sex toys... | | Turn-off?: | ...smoke... | | First kiss?: | what about it? | | If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: | flattered? | | Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going: | knowing them | | Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out: | not really | | Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv: | yea | | Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: | not really | | What is best about the opposite sex?: | theyr eyes | | What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: | dont ask me! | | What's the last present someone gave you?: | a ring | | Are you in love?: | love...big word... | | Do you consider your significant other hot?: | there is no significant other yet | | Who Was the Last Person... | | That haunted you?: | people dont haunt me | | You wanted to kill?: | joe c. | | That you laughed at?: | andrea, alex, and ryan | | That laughed at you?: | andrea, alex, and ryan | | That turned you on?: | wtf!? | | You went shopping with?: | myself | | That broke your heart?: | noone, i break my own heart | | To disappoint you?: | lots | | To ask you out?: | i dont even remember... | | To make you cry?: | myself | | To brighten up your day?: | ...they know themselves... | | That you thought about?: | RIP Uncle Joe | | You saw a movie with?: | auntie n uncle ron | | You talked to on the phone?: | kassy | | You talked to through IM/ICQ?: | ryan | | You saw?: | destiny | | You lost?: | RIP John Parady | | Right This Moment... | | Are you going out?: | no | | Will it be with your significant other?: | no | | Or some random person?: | im not leaving damnit! | | What are you wearing right now?: | clothes | | Body part you're touching right now:: | im not touching myself you perv | | What are you worried about right now?: | myself | | What book are you reading?: | none | | What's on your mousepad?: | the evil apple tree from the wizard of oz | | Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:: | hurt, sad, lonely, upset, depressed | | Are you bored?: | yes | | Are you tired?: | yes | | Are you talking to anyone online?: | yes | | Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: | no | | Are you lonely or content?: | lonely | | Are you listening to music?: | yes |
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| [x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x] | | What's your name? ::: | Sam | | Birthplace ::: | RI | | Age ::: | 14 | | Age you act ::: | 14 i guess? | | Current location ::: | RI | | Eye color ::: | brown | | Hair color ::: | brown | | Right, lefty or ambidextrous? ::: | lefty/ambidextrous | | Zodiac sign? ::: | ~*Aries*~ | | Height? ::: | about 5'1 | | [x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x] | | Your heritage/nationality ::: | Native American, French, Irish | | Your hair ::: | um, its brown and its hair? and its um..shoulder lengthish? | | Your fears ::: | love, hieghts, falling and not having someone there to catch me, spiders, reality | | Your perfect room ::: | it would be all black and white...everything would either be black or white...accept for all the band posters that would be up on the walls. | | What you practically do in a day ::: | walk, eat, sleep, talk to people, come online...babysit, watch movies eat more? | | [x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x] | | Words you overuse ::: | Ish | | Phrases you overuse ::: | uh...i dunno dont ask me ask um...them people that get pissed off by things that i say | | Your first thought when you wake up ::: | what time is it? | | Your greatest accomplishment ::: | i made it to highschool! woohoo!/passing french | | Something you want to do ::: | skydive, bungee jump, cliff dive | | [x] Part 4 -- This or that [x] | | Pepsi or Coke ::: | pepsi | | McDonald's or Burger Kings ::: | McDonals | | Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera ::: | uh..if i had to chose, christina would win | | Chocolate or vanilla ::: | both | | Adidas or Nike ::: | all star chuck taylor converses! | | Black or white ::: | black | | Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::: | bills | | Burgers or hot dogs ::: | neither | | Egypt or France ::: | egypt | | Rock or rap ::: | rock! | | [x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x] | | Smoke ::: | eww no | | Cuss ::: | no :lies: | | Sing well ::: | not really | | Sing in the shower ::: | no | | Talk to yourself --a lot-- ::: | ...sometimes.... | | Believe in yourself ::: | no | | Like taking these longass surveys? ::: | eh w/e | | Play an instrument ::: | nope | | Want to go to college? ::: | mhm | | Want to get married? ::: | mhm | | Want to have children? ::: | mhm | | Think you're a health freak? ::: | omg no | | Get along with your parents ::: | sometimes | | Get along with your siblings? ::: | nope | | Think you're popular ::: | not at all | | [x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x] | | Gone out of state ::: | yes | | Drank alchohal ::: | no | | Smoke ::: | no | | Get high ::: | no | | Done any drugs ::: | no | | Eaten an entire box of oreos ::: | we dont have oreos here :( | | Been on stage ::: | nope | | Gone skinny dipping ::: | ...wouldnt you like to know | | Been dumped ::: | not this month... | | Dyed your hair ::: | ..they wont let me | | Stolen anything ::: | no | | [x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x] | | Craziest ::: | me | | Loudest ::: | sara | | Most shy ::: | me | | Blondest ::: | andrea..hehe | | Smartest ::: | matt | | Kindest ::: | matt | | Best personality ::: | all of them | | Most talented ::: | all of them | | Best singer ::: | katie | | Most ghetto ::: | kassy | | Drama Queen ((or King XP)) ::: | me | | Pain in the ass ::: | me | | The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style))::: | uh, i dunno | | Funniest ::: | andrea | | Best person for advice ::: | matt | | Dependable ::: | all | | Trustworthy ::: | all | | Druggie ::: | ...? | | Most likely to end up in jail ::: | none | | Person you've known the longest ::: | aria | | [x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x] | | Last dream ::: | i dont dream.. | | Last nightmare ::: | i fell and there was nobody there to catch me | | Car ride ::: | with auntie to get back to the house | | Last time you cried ::: | last night | | Last movie seen ::: | Ammityvile 2: the possesion | | Last movie rented ::: | 50first dates | | Last book read ::: | Shadows by John Saul | | Last word said ::: | aww | | Last curse word said ::: | damn | | Last time you laugh ::: | 2hours ago | | Last phone call ::: | when kassy called last week | | Last CD played ::: | H.I.M | | Last song you listened to ::: | Pieces of Me by Ashlee Simpson | | Last annoyance ::: | um...Bonnie | | Last IM ::: | from ryan | | Last weird encounter ::: | uh..i dunno | | Last person you hugged ::: | ryan | | Last person you yelled at ::: | uncle ron | | Last time you wore a skirt ::: | 2weeks ago | | Last time you've been evil ::: | today | | Sarcastic? ::: | when am i not? | | Last time you fought with your parents ::: | yesterday | | Last time you wished upon a star ::: | last night | | Played Truth or Dare ::: | months ago | | Spent quality time alone ::: | never | | [x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x] | | Are you talking to someone on AIM ::: | yes | | Do you feel lonely ::: | yes | | Ever TP'd someone's house ::: | no | | How about egging someone's house ::: | no | | Do you not like dislike not like me? ::: | huh? | | Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? ::: | eww no | | Yo Momma ::: | ...right... | | Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? ::: | no | | What do you think of George Bush? ::: | who cares? | | Any secret fetishes? ::: | ...maybe...secrets are secrets for a reason | | Do you like to wear chains? O_o ::: | sometimes | | How many languages do you speak? ::: | 2 | | Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! ::: | nope | | Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you =P)) ::: | yes! now stalk me! |
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| 07.05.04 (8:35 am) [edit] |
mm, im starting to get homesick...very homesick. i miss patch...(my dog). i miss my messy room i had to share with manda. i miss sleeping on the couch every night because its to hot upstairs. i miss trying to stay up until 3am to watch music videos all night. i miss blaring the radio all day when im home alone.
i mean its great here but its so different. i mean its fun, i can go swimming at midnight like i did the other night, and i can be on the computer till midnight(they cut me down 2hours) and i can go to friends houses. i mean i live so much closer to ryan and andrea and alex and val and everyone but...i really wanna go home at least for afew days.
i havent been home since the day after school ended, and that was just to pick up clothes i havent slept in my bed since the day before school ended.
i mean i love it here its great, and i love being near everyone but i miss being at home...in seclusion. i miss everyone around home. and i miss being pissed off cause every 5minute the phone would ring for manda. i think moving is to much of a change right now, i mean its not like i miss anyone there, i just miss everything thats happened there.
i talked to mom on the phone earlier, she said that patch misses me too. cause when everyone else is there accept for me hes all sad and depressed and isnt eating as much as he used to.
im going home tomorrow night to spend accouple of nights at moms and then coming back here. i miss home so much, its not even funny anymore.
o well....
im going to canada this summer. on august 20th, coming back on the 29th...ima miss him alot..alot alot alot. :(...but i guess itll be fun, i mean spendin over a week at some random persons house in canada....i could have fun :innocent smiles:
i have a pet rock named rocky lmao, thank you alex for the lovely idea of adopting a rock :)
**CanDii**
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| 07.04.04 (6:57 pm) [edit] |
happy fourth of july!
i went to a cook-out at ryans today, it was fun. :)
fireworks are scaring the dog...lol shes afraid of everything...
..i wanna go see fireworks but, i got home to late...manda n scott had already left by the time that i had gotten here. blah, its ok though, cause i would have had nobody to sit and cuddle with while watching them...
i love fireworks, aww theyr the best, can be romantic too.
mm, i miss him :(...
**CanDii**
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| 06.30.04 (8:35 pm) [edit] |
since i gave up my safety pins im having the hardest time trying to sleep. its like when im ready to sleep i cant fall asleep and when i finally do i wake up millions of times during the night and have the hardest time falling back asleep.
it doesnt help that im incredably lonely at night and i have nothing to make me emotionless anymore...its like the one thing that i could use to get away from everything and i dont have it anymore...its like killer horrible
i went to the baseball game today with kayla and ryan :) it was fun...:looks around innocently:
i feel so..i dunno...not dead...but not out of it...that unhappy medium in the middle...and worst of all i miss him so much...
**CanDii**
ifn...im andrea's sexxay, depressed, gothic annorexic super model...lmao (dont ask...you wouldnt get it)
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| 06.28.04 (8:31 pm) [edit] |
hmm well, today was a lazy day, i spent most of my time just laying around the house doing nothing. i went to the town hall with auntie n uncle ron in my pajamas...hehe...
i wanted to go out but that didnt work out to well
speaking of working out i gotta do something to get back into somewhat of a good shape...
mm :yawn: im still tired...i didnt sleep good at all last night. i had to cry myself to sleep because i ended up getting rid of my needles and safety pins, and then i was up every hour...blah
i cant get my mind off someone...i miss them much n much. and i didnt really talk to them today... hmm :sighs:
2days till my willow comes back and i have my bestest friend again! :happy: i miss my willow greatly, i havent talked to her in over 3weeks! grr
mm, well...i think thats all i have to say right about now...
**CanDii**
ifn...hannah, ill start the trend right here and then ill tell everyone how you came up with it by acting like a blondie. :smiles:
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I adopted a cute lil' March birthstone fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!
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